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My Page – Beaders Showcase

February 27, 2009

My Beader’s Showcase slideshow. Enjoy!

Starting on October 7, 2008, I will be featuring hand-created lampwork beads by Margaret “Maggs” Kailhofer of Madison, Wisconsin. You can visit her independent website at http://www.maggscreations.com/

If you see anything that you might be interested in buying, click on the “ArtFire” widget on the sidebar.  That will take you to my commercial site, Greyfeather Designs .  Some of the stuff on the slideshow is listed there.  If it isn’t, it’s probably in one of the galleries I show at, or in my personal collection; use the “contact artisan” button at Greyfeather, and we can talk, and maybe dicker on price for something similar. I also work on commission, so if there is a stone or a style that you’ve seen that you’d like, but maybe not quite as you saw it, we can work together. I enjoy designing to a client’s personal preferences…but expect then to be paying for a unique work of art. I welcome any inquiries or comments.

 

 

 

 

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Bleacher Bum Blues

June 27, 2009

Long, long ago, more years than I care to count anymore, I was one of the youngest members of the original Chicago Cubs Bleacher Bums.  For three years, I went to nearly every home game during summer vacation, and caught as many games as I could in April and May,  August and September.  The older regulars out there, once they got to know my friends and I, they’d hold our front row seats for us, right above the distance markers in the left field power alleys.  It was a fine, fun way to spend a summer.  Even my mom loved it.  She knew exactly where I was, she knew the older Bums kept an eye out for us kidlings, she knew I wasn’t getting into any trouble, and she knew all the friends I went to the park with.  All was well.  What could be better than baseball in the bleachers of a summer’s afternoon?

Back then, both bleachers and grandstand tickets were sold on a day-of-game basis.  There was even a “Ladies’ Day” promtion where women and girls over the age of 14 could get a grandstand seat for free.  You got down to the park early and you stood in line, waiting for the gates to open.  When they did, you’d shell out the cash for your ticket right there and walk on in past the ushers and ticket-tearers at the turnstile.  Only the season ticket holders and the rich people who sat down in the box seats bought  their tickets in advance.  The rest of us hung out daily,  queued  up and waiting, taking turns making coke and coffee runs to the McD’s a block away from the gates until the ticket box took the shades off the windows.  Once in, we sat through batting practice, watching the players run wind-sprints in the outfield.  We cheered on our favorites, razzed the opposition players, hoped for a home run ball to come our way.  Occaisionally, someone would autograph a baseball for you.  My prize ball from those years had the signatures of several Hall of Famers; Billy Williams, Ernie Banks, Ferguson Jenkins and several quality players who never got the Cooperstown Call, like Ron Santo and Ken Holtzman.  My nose was perpetually sunburned during those years in the sun out in left field.  (I’m durned lucky I’m not genetically prone to skin cancer.)   I knew all the players by number and could quote you stats and scouting reports and kept a scorecard that a newspaper sports reporter would have been proud of.  Baseball’s ins and outs, strategies and styles of play, standings and statistics were a source of endless interest and converation with the other Bums.  The bleachers were “an experience” but they were affordable fun as well, and it was all about the game, not about being trendy and being seen at the park.

Back then, a seat on the bench out there in the outfield cost all of $1.00.  Bus fare usually cost me $0.70 round trip.  We’d pack a peanut butter bag lunch, and shell out another dollar or so for a soft drink during the game.  You see what I mean?  There was no advance planning needed, and even a kid wouldn’t be breaking the budget to take in a game or several.  It was a great way to be growing up.

I went through another phase at Wrigley, in the summer after my first year in law school.  I was back in Chicago after 12 years away, in college and working, and it was the year Andre Dawson showed up ownership’s hiring and contracting collusion, and tore up the rest of the league playing for baseball’s minimum wage.  He was the The Man that year, and the MVP for the National League, even though the Cubs finished dead last.  I spent quite a few games at the park, this time in right field cheering him on as he made his way to 49 home runs and about 130 RBIs while the rest of the team pretty well stunk the place up.  Even then in 1987, when most tickets to Wrigley were available as advance sales, you could still get day-of-game tickets for the bleacher, and a seat on the benches over the outfield was still affordable fun at $4.00 a ticket.  And in a pinch, I had a good rapport with a reasonably honest ticket scalper who could get me tickets even for sold-out-in-advance games at a not-too-unreasonable markup.  I took a friend to the 2nd Billy Williams Day with tickets bought from my contact, tickets that were otherwise wholly unavailable.  Those were steep, but still not unreasonable.  And the bleachers were still the cheap seats, as they should be.  Let the suits have their skyboxes and field box seats; we students on a tight budget and blue collar types were fine with the backless benches and the view from behind.

Turn your back on the past and come up to 2009.

I just looked at the prices for bleacher seats.  If you can get them -IF – the tickets will set you back on average a cool $50.00 each.

That’s right.  It’s not a typo.  $50.00.  They can go as high as $60.00 on premium days to as low as $25.00 on five days either early or late in the season when you’re likely to freeze you buttocks off, but for the majority of home games you’ll  be paying either $40.00 or $50.00.  This for a seat on a bare, backless wooden bench with splinters,  squeezed in between a bunch of hairy, raucous strangers doing their best to get a buzz off the 3.0 beer, and mixed in with them, a bunch of young ladies who care more about working on their tan than about what’s going on on the field.  In the sun, in the wind, with pigeons picking up the dropped popcorn and your choice of hot dogs with or without mustard and onions for refreshment. 

They market it as an iconic Chicago experience. Come And Enjoy A Day In The Sun At Beautiful Wrigley Field.  But genuine baseball fans don’t sit out there in the bleachers anymore.  It’s the tourists and the trend-seekers; people for whom it’s The Thing To Do.  Sit on the benches above the ivy, enjoy the fine weather, maybe have a beer or three.  Hang out and soak up the atmosphere.  And, oh, wow, is that a real major league baseball game going on out there?  How quaint!  It’s almost as if the game is incidental to the ambiance.  Enjoying the performance of the players takes a far back seat to being there and being seen.

A child is forever barred now from the kind of baseball fandom that I lived in and enjoyed all those years back.  A baseball game isn’t casual entertainment anymore, it’s an outing you have to plan for well in advance.  And it will set you back a fair piece of change.

There are still affordable seats in the park. If you’re willing to sit in the nosebleed zone, way up in the upper deck above the left or right field corners, those tickets run from $9.00 to $25.00, depending on the time of year, the team being played and whether its a day or night game.  Moving in a little bit from the corners to the infield area, it runs from $11.00 to $28.00.  And lower level seats, in the far back area of the grandstands where the sun never reaches, those you can get at a relatively moderate $16.00 to $45.00.  This is not including your transportation, your parking if you drive, and your refreshments.

Oh, yeah.  And they check your bags at the gate to be sure you’re not bringing in your own food and drinks.  “Bottles and cans not allowed” is the rationale.  I suspect that $7.50 for a cup of beer and about $5.00 per hot dog might have something to do with it as well.

I rarely go to live baseball games any more.  As an adult, who can afford it?  For The Boy?  Well, we’ve made a point of visiting ballparks around the major leagues when we vacation.  He’s been to Wrigley and Comiskey Park (a/k/a U. S, Cellular Field), to Milwaukee both at the old County Stadium and the new Miller Park, and to St. Louis at both the old and new Busch Stadiums.  We’ve seen games as well in Kansas City, Minneapolis and Pittsburgh.  On the way to Pittsburgh, in fact, we flew over games going on in Yankee Stadium, The Mets at Shea, and the Phillies in Philadelphia.  But those have all been carefully planned and scheduled trips.  He collects baseball cards as a potential investment, not in the hope of getting the card of a particular favorite player, and he discusses their market value at great lengths with his friends who are similarly inclined.  It just isn’t the same.

I’m still a Cubs fan.  I’ll probably die a Cub’s fan.  But I’m not sure I care for what Baseball has become.  It’s a business.   It’s all about the bottom line.   And like any other entertainment business, they’ll charge what the market will bear.  And the parks fill up, even at those prices.  I don’t know who’s buying those ticket, but the Cubs at Wrigley sell out every year, no matter how well or badly the team plays.

But I no longer sit in the bleachers.  The experience, nostalgic as it may be to an ex-original-bleacher-bum like me,  just isn’t worth it.

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Superhero Barak Video

June 20, 2009

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Business as an Importer?

June 18, 2009

I just realized recently that due to the Internet,  my fledgling jewelry business has an international component to it.  In the past year,  I have directly purchased:

  • Silver from Thailand and Indonesia
  • “Turquoise”, freshwater pearls, and jasper from China
  • Dichroic glass from Mexico 
  • Jade from a wholesaler in Great Britain

Indirectly, as well, I have the following:

  • African and Peruvian opals
  • Bone beads from India
  • Jasper and seraphinite from Russia
  • Crystal from Austria
  • Specialized glass beads from the Czech lands
  • Afghanistan and Egyptian lapis
  • Handmade glass beads purchased directly from the makers from several locations in the USA, including Wisconsin, Utah, and Florida, for starters.

Just today I opened a small package of silver nugget beads and bulk chain from a free-trade collective of Thai artisans, and yesterday I finalized bids on 3 sets of dichroic glass beads.  These are things I would never have had access to prior to the internet.  I can actually deal directly with the artisans themselves in many cases, doing away with the middleman, and assuring myself that at least in those cases, the workers themselves are given a fair wage and work under decent conditions.  This is important to me.

But – this makes me an importer in the international market.  That’s a mind-boggling concept.

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This was expected

June 7, 2009

The moon is full today, and I am flat on my back, after the past 2 days day tripping back and forth from the north.  My eyes feel like the drive was through the Sahara, and my legs, though not acutely painful, feel as though someone attached leaden weights to them.  Then again, I expected something like this. Still:

The Cubs beat the Reds in 14 innings, in a series that was terribly played on both sides, and where all three of the scheduled games went over the regulation 9 innings.

Rain filled the basin out on my deck, so that the local birdies are dropping in for a drink and a bath.

My cat, Murray, seems to have forgiven me for having to dunk his nether end into warm soapy water and swish it around after he got out of the litter box suffering from “clingons”.

The Erroll Flynn version of “Robin Hood” is on the tube, which, while the costuming, swordplay, and actual politics is terribly historically inaccurate, still is one heck of a lark. 

Soon or late, I must move.  I have a pizza to cook for the boys, and we’re out of coffee, among other things.

It’s the full moon.  as good an excuse as any

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Artistic Credibility

June 6, 2009

The last time I went to the Grace Chosy Gallery in Madison, WI, they agreed to show eight pieces of my handmade jewelry, out of the collection of about two dozen I brought up for them to look at.  That was last September, 2008.  Then I promptly forgot about them, in the rush of other pressing matters that were on my mind that autumn and winter.

The middle of this May, I unexpectedly got an envelope in the mail from them.  I fully expected it to say “Come and pick up your junk, no one cares.” in some polite manner.  It had been that kind of winter.

Instead, it contained a check for 148.00 – my cut on the 6 items that had sold.  This produced an immediate elevation of my mood.  Plus, the check financed my last visit to the International Gem Show at the end of May, where I restocked my stores of “turquoise” – most of it admittedly dyed howlite or magnesite, but some gorgeous genuine stuff – plus some lapis, azurite, coral, and a handful of strands of lovely freshwater pearls in all sorts of natural and artificially assisted colors.  More pretty shineys or colorful matte stones to make Good Stuff out of.  It’s the artistry and the pleasure of the making that’s the point of it.  I can’t possibly wear it all, but I’m never lacking for good gifts for female friends and family.

Earlier this week – right after my doctor’s appointment, while I was still feeling good – I went back to my local gallery, since I hadn’t heard from them in ages. I apparently had a few sales there, too.  I talked it over with the owner, and she is definitely interested in seeing some more or my work, even after I warned her that I’d made a concerted effort to upgrade my line, which would in consequence, raise my prices.  So sometime in the near future, she and I are going to do some business.

Friday afternoon, The Spouse and The Boy and I drove to Madison, WI, first to take care of some Court business, and then to make a family outing of it. Madison is always fun.  We grownups got our business done, then The Boy got his coveted trip to a comic book collector’s store, where he picked up an entire series of “Terminator” comics – 6 issues, which comprised a complete adventure for the characters.  While he was there, I stopped across the street at the GC Gallery, just on a whim.

I came out with an appoinment for the next day – ie: today. 

I was not expecting anything major, of course; but since September I have been experimenting in various different media and techniques from multi-strands in mixed metal, glass, crystal and gemstones, asymmetric designs, wire-work and even handmade Byzantine chain.  So, although I thought I might be overdoing it, I think I took about fifty individual items up to show to the manager. 

She accepted thirty-two of them.

They’re going to have to give me my own display case.

She almost bought the opal and raku bracelet off my own wrist.

Wow.

The agreed retail prices ranged from about $16.00 for a simple pair of glass earrings to $240.00 for a complex multi-stranded and textured necklace constructed around a three-inch long fine silver dragonfly from Thailand as an asymmetric focal piece.  Some of what she accepted had been made as parts of a matched set, but each item was priced individually.  I had to take several items off my web store, where they were being looked at but nothing else, and the prices were adjusted accordingly, as the gallery and I split the proceeds 50-50.  We’ll see what sells. 

She clearly thought my work would sell.   Thirty-two pieces.  Wow.  I’d be doing cartwheels but for the fact that my shoulders, hips and knees are still miserable.  The drive 2 days running did me nothing of good, and next weekend I have to go to St. Louis, MO for my niece’s wedding.  By then, the prednisone should have kicked in, please god(ess).  But I’m bringing the Good Stuff anyway, and I hope the hotel haws a whirlpool spa.

It really felt good, to be sitting there in a genuine art gallery with paintings and sculptures and fiber-work such as tapestry and all, with a colorful array of  my own work  spread out all over the manager’s clean white desk.  I loved it.

It felt like respect.  I’m not just a wanna-be any more.

I guess I really AM an artist.

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An Episode Of Mystery Diagnosis?

June 6, 2009

I’m rather a fan of the digital cable Discovery Health Channel late-night rundown.  They do such charming reality  shows as “Life in the ER”, “Medical Incredible”, “Mystery Diagnosis”, and their latest, “I Didn’t Know I Was Pregnant!”.  When you have insomnia and need something to occupy your mind for an hour or two, it’s like going to the old-style 19th Century Circus Freak Show.  You get people with grotesque deformities, diseases that don’t act like they’re supposed to, complete and total ignorance to the point of hilarity (as in unprotected sex + weight gain + frequent urination, as if you had something compressing your bladder, etc.  just might   indicate that you’re expecting a baby…  ) the amazing and improbable outcomes that the combination of alcohol, youth, and testosterone can bring into the Emergency Room at 3AM, and an array of such grotesque tragedies as conjoined twins who are effectively one  person with 2 heads, schizophrenic patients who have only one head, but two voices conversing in it, the World’s Fattest Man’s preparations for his wedding (he seems a very nice person, as is his wife to be, but you know the show’s appeal is based on “try not to visualize…”) and various bizarre overgrowth syndromes that are invariably compared to the famous “Elephant Man”.  It’s kind of like watching a train wreck.  How can you watch that?  How can you not watch that?  It’s an ongoing mental loop of curiosity/disbelief/more curiosity and small details adding up to an eventual conclusion similar to Sherlock Holmes and his amazing powers of deduction.  Or it’s like watching an episode of “House”, except that the doctors are nice to the patients and not trying to screw one another either mentally or physically.  (Incidentally, if you  watch “House” – and I recomend it, it’s a great show – have you ever noticed how many episodes deal with some variant of auto-immune and/or rheumatological disorder?  We’re a small and weirdly fascinating medical community, we are.)   Some people like “America’s Funniest Home Videos.”  Some folks get addicted to You Tube.  Me, I enjoy the late night scientific side show.  You can even learn something potentially useful at times.

I just wish I didn’t feel as if I deserved an episode of my own.

Yes, plaquenil has helped with the dry-eyes-dry-mouth-constant respiratory infection aspect of things.  It may even be helping with the devastating fatigue… a little.  It seems, though, that it hasn’t done a bloody damned thing for the reasonless bruising; the muscle inflammation and joint aches that can make walking a half mile on an incline an experience that I might recover from in 3 or 4 hours – or in 3 or 4 days, depending on the phase of the moon and whether my cat gave me the evil eye that morning;  the “my shoulder predicts the weather” syndrome – in other words, the stuff that I really, really wanted to go away!  I saw my doc on Wednesday, and gave the usual 2 tubes of blood to check if my liver and kidneys were reacting adversely to the meds. (they weren’t)  In exchange, I walked out with a prescription for pain medication and prednisone for when the aches and pains climbed up past the ability of the standard anti-inflammatories and other stuff to manage.  I wasn’t expecting that time to occur the weekend after the visit.  Really.  I could have managed without those symptoms just a little longer quite handily.  I would prefer not to have to manage with them at all.

On the whole, Sjogren’s disease is supposed to be more of a chronic annoyance than a potential crippler.  If it were only dry eyes and dry mouth, I would never have seen a specialist other than the dentist. ( I could support one singlehandedly)  The patient with chronic muscle and joint aches, with respiratory involvement, with peripheral neuropathies and consequent balance difficulties or clumsiness, is far and away the exception to the general rule.

Welcome to my life.  My friends the psychic sensitives tell me that I have been the glow in the dark electric blue sparrowhawk for more than just this lifetime.  I wish I could find it in me to dispute that.  I wish.  But I can’t deny what I know to be true.

So the net result is that after all this time,we still can’t take the horrid-itises and scare-you-spitless syndromes (pun intended, of course) off the diagnostic tree of possibilities.  Like MS, or SLE (lupus) or even RA.  How long has it been?  It’s been in my shoulders and respiratory system since beyond forever, moved into my wrists and hands in the 80’s, moved out of those and into my back, hips and knees in about 2003 0r 4, and I finally convinced my primary care doc that no, it wasn’t  ”just stress” in about 2006.  I’ve been making the rounds ever since.  If this is as good as it gets, that’s depressing.  That’s really depressing.  In all that time, the only definitive thing accomplished has been to shoot the cost of my health insurance through the roof – if the insurer will even accept me as a customer.  Let’s hear it for a national health care plan!  Vote early and often, my friends, as they say in Chicago.

Let’s not get into the topic of the health and liability insurance industry.  Not unless you want an earful.  If you’ve seen the movie, “The Devil’s Advocate” (and NO, I am not recommending it – talk about depressing!) I am convinced that Al Pacino as Satan was the chief legal officer or CEO of Prudential.  Or maybe Aetna.

And I would not be surprised if on my next visit to the doctor’s office, I was confronted by a scruffy looking dude with a cane and a white coat who looked remarkably like Hugh Laurie on a bad day, accompanied by a team of eager-beaver physicians on fellowship and near half my age, all of them ready to poke and prod and scan all sorts of unlikely places looking for who knows what.  A glimpse of ultimate Truth?  The meaning of Life?  Or just the base cause and triggering mechanism that makes my own immune system mistake my glands and connective tissue and sometimes my nerves for an invading virus.  I certainly don’t know the answers to any of that.  I don’t even care if they find it, so long as they take the pain seriously, and can make it go away!

It’s the Freak show, friends!  Right here, in Real Life.  Step right up, you’ll be amazed and astounded…

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Cat Sworn as Witness

May 24, 2009
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April 29, 2009
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Reversing the Black Cat Curse?

April 22, 2009

I have, unfortunately, been a Chicago Cubs fan for most of my life.  It’s a tragic character flaw that I cannot seem to overcome.  Every year, I watch, with the same fascinated horror, hoping beyond hope that this might be “The Year”, but knowing, where it counts that my boys will inevitably find some way to blow it.  It’s been happening so for the 40 + years since I’ve been a fan – younger member of the original bleacher bums for a couple of years before I was old enough to get a real job part time; countless games in left field behind Billy Williams, and in right field behind Andre Dawson.  Countless screaming fits at disastrous relief pitching, from Phil Reagan to Goose Gossage and all the hopeless disasters from Turk Wendell to Kyle Farnsworth, and the nameless  ones who blew leads and departed, never to be heard from again.  All the home runs wasted.  The Bartmans, and the Durhams, and Greg Maddux choking again and again in the post season after Cy Young worthy regular seasons.  All of it.

Yes, I am old enough to remember the black cat running into the Cubs dugout at Shea in 1969.  The so-called “Miracle Mets” are an unmentionable subject in my household.  But while many attempts to reverse the “Billy Goat Curse” have been made, including the display of a severed goat’s head outside of Wrigley Field at opening day this year (probably purchased from an ethnic grocery), I’ve never seen or heard of anyone trying to lift the curse of the black cat.

It may have happened today.  In the course of the Cub’s 7-2 win over Cincinnati tonight, the following event occurred:

Notes: When a cat ran onto the field during the fourth inning, delaying the game for several minutes, WGN-TV cameras panned to former Cubs star Ron Santo in the broadcast booth. Back in 1969, a black cat crossed Santo’s path at Shea Stadium and Chicago went on to squander a huge division lead to the Mets – an enduring symbol of the Cubs‘  futile century. Tuesday’s tabby had only a few black spots.  (Courtesy of Fox News)

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(Photo from Chicago Tribune Breaking News Center)

Allow me to correct:  It was not a tabby, it was a calico.  Mostly white, with black and orange patches.  Not a bad-luck cat.  It was released somehow into the outfield, was chased across the field into the Cubs bullpen, where one of the players cornered it, picked it up, (Ultimately by it’s tail, as it refused to cooperate with more standard techniques - who picks up a cat by it’s tail!  And what cat cooperates with that rather than a gentle lift?)  and turned it over either to a fan, or to security.  The poor cat was terrified – her tail was puffed up like a bottle brush, and I deplore the fans who brought her in to release her, since they obviously will not be coming forward to reclaim her.  One is forced to imagine how they managed to smuggle the poor cat into the ballpark to begin with.  No true cat-aficiaonado would ever have done such a thing, or even considered it.

But think about it.  In its misguided way, this may be the attempt of a true fan to lift the last remaining hex on the Cubs.  Counter the black cat at Shea with a mostly white cat at Wrigley.  It could work.  This might be the the one.

Die Hard.  At least we never have to go back to Shea Stadium.  That’s something too, in and of itself.

Good Kitty.  They should let her take residence up in the Clubhouse, and treat her like a princess.  Just in case.